A bit personal and...boundaries
Weekly Letter, 30th August, 2024
Just wow, now a third of 2024 has literally gone and, for the Astrology nerds like myself, the autumn presents itself like a serious popcorn period.
Thank you for your replies 😃they help me to shape up these letters a little bit.
(But remember, it is impossible to please everyone and being a ‘people pleaser’ is a role I gave up not that long ago, unfortunately).
There was a very funny one though. It really made me laugh.
Someone replied if I could, please, send these emails in Bengali because he did not understand English.
I find it hilarious and sweet to be honest.
Note: I have no clue what language that is and where from (I know, fucking embarrassing 🫣)
Someone else asked me if I still do videos? 😳😯
And that, I did not take that well and I’ll explain why.
Who Am I?
So if you are subscribed to this letter you know who I am, right?
Here’s a reminder.
NO, you don’t know who I am really…because I don’t even know myself sometimes 😆
Jokes aside…
I am a digital content creator (I think that’s roughly IT).
In the olden times it would have been an artist.
Yes, that is so broad… but, precisely, it fits really well with me.
Another word I recently discovered is: Polymath.
It comes from the Greek (it all does pretty much) and the Wikipedia meaning is:
A polymath is an individual with extensive knowledge across multiple fields, often referred to as a "Renaissance person" for their diverse expertise.
I know it may sound pretentious (maybe it is) but not that I care.
I won’t compare myself to anyone since “comparison is the thief of joy” as Roosevelt said.
However, that’s the way I see it.
I really know and have interest and experience in a lot of different fields.
What’s actually already known?
Instagram (sort of) model
Tiktok clown
Twitter teaser (I don’t like it that much)
Youtube actress
Patreon nude artist
Facebook “I-don’t-even-understand-how-it-works-yet” posting person
Redditor “not-sure-what-I-am-doing-there-to-be-honest-as-I-keep-getting-banned”
Threads spectator.
Letter writer (in here🤪)
aaaaand, coming up…
Best selling author (yes, an actual book with cover, pages and all that stuff).
And well… some other things that I am surely forgetting from the past and others I keep to myself…for now.
I think that is a pretty extensive…AND if we add to that that I HAVE A LIFE TO LIVE…
What’s the point of all this I mention?
That I work alone at my own pace and that I (have to) take care of myself and protect my mental health that hasn’t been great in the last 5 years.
(OMG! it is going to be soon 5 years I started all this online madness!!)
I was 45 and felt strong and determined …but then, somehow along the way, I broke down badly…(you can still see some crying videos in my OF page from those days!).
Anyway…I have learnt SO much from those rough times!
And one of those lessons is setting up …
Boundaries
It really does not matter whether we talk about me and my online work or anything else in life like romantic relationships, friendships, family members, etc.
YOU NEED TO SET THEM UP
You need to protect yourself from burnout and unnecessary stress and/or anxiety.
My best friend sent me a message this week as she had had enough of a family member talking another one down.
She loves both of them so felt piggy in the middle and deeply distressed…
She’s had to get boundaries in place (I helped 😈)
So going back to that email asking me if I still do videos…(I mean I know who it is from and we had a conversation about it before)
I do videos, there are 386 videos on my Youtube channel and I have filmed plenty over these 5 years of ‘pseudo-career’.
If we count the Tiktoks, Reels and whatnot… I have surely made well over 1,000 of them.
Now…
It does not say ANYWHERE that I am committed to ‘produce’ X or Z content per week or whatever.
In fact, the only commitment I have made (to myself really) is sending out this letter every Friday at 7pm.
And guess what?
I am keeping my promise…and feels amazing and healing.
So another week that, if you’re still reading… I send you my deepest gratitude and (online) love ❤️
More next week about mental health as it is a biggie at the moment (again) for me 🫤
I am sorry I cannot send out this letter in Bengali or any other language because, as it happens, I am only a woman, not a fucking translator machine🤣
And to end today, another video (funnily enough) that I have made responding to somebody else who replied to my last week’s Letter with a dick-pic 😑
Don’t be this guy.
Have a wonderful weekend ahead and go strong into September ✨
Love,
Rose 🌹